sometimes...

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with all the things that I need to CHANGE about myself.

Then I hear someone say, "life is long" and I realized that I have a long time to change. When I have been married 30 years or so, the few times in our early marriage when I lost my temper and started throwing laundry around my bedroom will make us laugh because that will not be who I am anymore. I am working on it, and I will know how to stay calm someday.



Sometimes I worry that I've already ruined my children forever.

Then I remember that most of what I have done with and said to my children will not be remembered, much like I don't remember anything from when I was 3 and 5. The phases that they are going through (that drive me crazy!) will pass. And as long as I give them mostly positive interactions, they won't remember the negative. And once again, life is long and I am working on it.



Sometimes I think that I have no right to be happy when people I love are experiences such hardships.

Then I get down on my knees and pray for them and Thank God for my blessings. He wants us to be happy. And the amazing thing is, those I love are doing the same thing. And sometimes life is hard, but it makes us appreciate how good it is, too. "Come what may, and love it."