1.) Even though it means summer is ending, and I was slightly panicky when I saw them on display at our local (crappy) Wal-Mart, I love buying school supplies. Seriously. My kids' school provides all school supplies except a backpack and lunch box and I still buy loads of crayons, glue, markers and notebooks. I mean, come on, crayons are only 50 cents a box. Notebooks are 17 cents. I love stocking my house full of school supplies.
2.) While we were out running errands the other day, Jack and I picked out some school clothes for him. He is so excited for Kindergarten and asks me almost daily how many weeks until it starts. I can't believe he is starting kindergarten! He and I have always been little buddies and it will be so strange to not have him home. I get weepy just thinking about it.
3.) On the other hand, Jack is so ready to go to Kindergarten. He has always been my little "routine" kid and my fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants style doesn't sit well with him. When he knows his expectations and what comes next he thrives! I am so excited for him to grow and learn.
4.) Summer is wonderful and beautiful here, and I am not ready for it to be over. I feel frantic about it, quite frankly. I had goals and plans and ideas of how I was going to be the worlds best mommy this summer and I feel like time has slipped through my fingers like sand at the beach. I'm not ready for structure. I'm not ready to send the kids back. I'm not ready for cold weather. I want time to screech to a halt.
5.) On the other hand, maybe a routine is just what I need to kick myself into gear and to finally feel like I have a handle on things.When I get up and get going in the morning I get so much accomplished. I am a much better mother when I am productive. When things have order I am calmer and more likely to sit down and play or read or snuggle my kids.
Time marches on, doesn't it. Excuse me while I go have a panic attack.
3 comments:
I never had mixed emotions about school starting.
1. I knew some mommy relief was coming.
2. I got to load up on school supplies!
I still love to buy those notebooks, pens, pencils, crayons, and glue sticks! I'm SO with you on this one!
I've loved the first day of school ever since kindergarten! because
1. I get to load up on school supplies; even when no one needs any, I still want some. (silly, now that I'm an adult I can buy these things any time, but it feels exciting to buy them when school is about to begin)
2. I get to start learning again!! (I'm always learning, but it's kind of like New Year's goal setting, I think about learning with a grateful and anticipating heart when school is starting)
3. It signals the beginning of fall, my favorite season. (Warm days, cool nights, leaves changing, and the world just seems to have settled into itself. Now that I'm in the autumn of my life, I should really enjoy it)
OH and I totally get not wanting summer to be over, and feeling it has slipped away without my being able to accomplish the grand plans I made. I used to love/hate sending the kids to school. I was excited for their fresh start, but knew I would miss them. Homeschooling has solved that problem though!
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